My first 2 months of being a degree student was a mixture of  hecticness & blurriness with a sprinkle of fun and excitement topped with anxiety and stress. Yup. A perfect description, I guess. I'm now on mid semester break for a week yay! (And its ending soon lol) Whatever it is, finally, a rest for me. But of course, I have a pile of assignments waiting for me *cries in the corner*

I'm actually very excited to write but now that I'm here, I don't know what to write anymore. Lol serious lupa nak cerita apa! Gosh. Nampak dah symptom.

In terms of studying, I think I need to work things out much more. I'm not quite getting it yet, haven't pull things together. Phew, I'm such a handful, I need a lot of help (I'm so sorry to everyone around me) Okay, I know, no more suap from lecturers, everything you have to settle on your own & do it by yourself. BUT STILL????????

I'm struggling the most with Anatomy hahahaha. It's not too weird since I have been bad with biology since forever so I guess I'll just try to get along with Anatomy even though Anatomy don't want to befriend me.

My circle of friends has gotten much better. I have a bunch of people I love to hang out with. Tbh, I'm afraid to get myself attached to them because we don't know if our feelings are mutual with the other people right? But I love them, their presence matter to me.

Throughout the 2 months, I've been quite busy with a lot of things. And I tried to keep myself busy as it restrained me from having too much unnecessary/ negative thoughts. From early month of September until half of October I didn't get to have my free weekend hahahaha. At first it was because of World Cafe for Pimpin Siswa Lestari. The later week I went to USM Penang for Basketball. OMG to be given the chance to play basketball was just absolutely amazing for me. It was a very wonderful experience although kalah teruk hahaha. First game 8-0 weih HAHAHAHA. No high expectations because my team (Non-player) went against a bunch of trained basketball athletes hahahaha. They were hella cool! I even met Ipin!!!! a friend of mine from matrics hahaha.

Plus points ; I get to see my besties - They're studying in the main campus. Lepas rindu hihu, even just for a short while. During our 2 days 1 night basketball trip to Penang we also got to hang out at Queensbay Mall twice! Lol. Pan Mee @ Queen's Hall Food Court sedap gais tak tipu serious craving nak lagi.

The week after that, I volunteered for Mental Health Day at SK Kubang Kerian 3, promoting Frisbee lol. At first quite hambar but then it was still fun and dah lama tak main dengan budak-budak darjah! And yo that day is the day I met all my gucci gang members. Shout out to Ajat,Nyeng,Ati, Tirah,Ai,Intan,Zati & KakSu. I knew most of them from Frisbee tapi eh ni tiber jadi gang makan lepas tu jadi gang bas sekolah. Amenda tah hahahaha. It was a half-day event so like after that we planned to go play bowling at Billion but too bad there was a bowling tournament on that particular day so it was a full house. We came to a conclusion and went out to eat instead at Warung Badik-badik. They have a bunch of different & delicious fruit drinks, you name it. They have a smaller version of bingsu which cost around RM5-RM6. A perfect replacement of bingsu for students lol. Their main course is Mi So So - good if you add on the side dishes. If not, it will just be bihun sup kot haha. Also, on the same week we had a Sukan for Desasiswa thingy and my friend asked me to joined her team for basketball as they were short of members.Basketball is joy so yay! hahaha. It was raining cats and dogs on the match day and since nothing can be done about that, the match still went on

There was that one day when we hanged out at night, went for Nasi Lemak at Ajihs Nasi Lemak and "mengopi" at Kopi Mesin till late night. By the time I arrived in my room it was already 1 A.M! Crazy hahahaha. That day was also the day that I get to drive in Kelantan for the first time lol. Thanks Nyeng for letting me play with the car hahaha. We all main pusing-pusing USM tu yang jadi balik lagi lambat tu buang tabiat hahaha. Good day indeed. Guess what, the next morning we went to have breakfast at the ever famous Kopitiam Kita. Roti Titab dia tu masyaAllah sedap sangat but quite pricey jugaklah RM5 satu. I still don't get why its so freaking good when the combination is actually super weird if you think of it. Roti + Telur Goyang + Kaya + Kicap Masin???????? Bro I cannot brain tapi sedap.

I'm almost always at the field every evening, playing frisbee. Boleh kira pakai jari weih berapa kali je aku tak turun and tidur petang. Luar biasa? Ceh hahaha. Kalau hujan atau tak turun ni, level termenung aku petang tu dia up sikit, and hati rasa kosong begitu. Over kan? HAHAHA. The game is fun, the people are too. Frisbee people has got to be my favorite people in USM so far (although I'm not their faves but that's okay hahaha they still are mine) Through it, I met a lot of wonderful people, most of them are seniors, and medic students. Gosh I always envy medical related people with many talents. But sumpah tak tipu asal diorang banyak sangat talent?? Mohon sedekah dekat farahanis yang mcm talentless ni. Even so, they are nice to us juniors, teached us a lot of stuff, and treated us just like friends. Bonus point, they all are water proof hahahaha. Kalau hujan pun main, petir je balik hahaha. Macam sama je ada matahari ke takde they are always semangat 

I only have one favorite part of University and that is the fact that we are actually of different ages and background but I feel like we're all 19 hahaha. Everyone look the same age tbh. Seniority pun tak kuat so best lah to me. Easy to get along hihi.

Omg btw, there will be a frisbee tournament next week and I'm in!!!!!!!! Can't believe I'm entering a tourney??? And I'm with Team Dragon - a lot of taikos & pros in this team and I'm sesat over here. I hope I don't ruin this team hahaha. #pray4farah To be able to play with them, I'm already grateful. I hope it will become a sweet experience for me. Sumpah mcm actually takut gila seram and tak confident sebab I nOOb and they all cenggini ha pro dia.

The week before this break I had a few tests- continuous assesment for all the subjects I'm taking this sem. Anatomy killed me inside and out hahahaha. And test dia paling strict doh even in lecture hall, bag letak kat belakang and duduk pun jauh2. Frustrating gila hahaha. But then that evening I went for my frisbee training and had fun in the rain hahaha. We had a friendly with Team Ace. At the end of the training when we all huddled, captain puji I omg out of everyone dia sebut nama I :') HAHAHA. Berbunga gila rasa sampai hilang semua stress anatomy tu Makes me want to do better and better!

Bila balik rumah, my aunts and friends kata I kurus uahahahaha sukanya I. Lepasni nak buat Friday morning jadi wajib jog kahkahkah acah ye.

First jog with Diba - lepastu cari roti canai lol

Whatever it is, although I often get what I call "negativity attacks" these days, I just want to remind myself to stay strong because Allah does not burden a soul beyond that it can bear. I have to get going now because I will head back to Kelantan this evening hahaha. I wrote this post because I want to remember the fun times that I had during my 2 rough months! So please #pray4farah. May Allah bless yall.

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