Hi everyone. It's me?!!!!!! No one asked, but lol whatever. How yall been doing? I have 2 drafts but here I am writing a new post.

Insert drum rolls please. I'm now officially a degree student! Welcome to hell degree life! Hahaha I'm half joking half not It has been almost 2 weeks now since I've set my foot on the land of USMKK. Yes, USM Kubang Kerian,Kelantan. Ye Kelantan weih dah dah la tu hahahahaha. Again, I am soOOO far from home but if this is the path that Allah has arranged for me, than I am far more willing to do it. I pray and hope that I am in the right course, in a right place and at the right time with the right people. #pray4farahanis #berapakalirightnaktuliswoi

It was a tough decision to come here but for now I'm just going with the flow. The past 1 week has been a torture for me. It was super hard to adapt. Everything feels wrong to me. Especially air paip yang panas kat toilet tu ya Allah aku memang tak boleh brain time tu tapi sekarang air tu macam dah normal sikit alhamdulillah. I thought I'm strong enough to be a lone ranger but I guess I'm not really that strong. But, I tried. Really hard, to just keep on surviving. Even though it was just the orientation week. lol @ me. Don't get me wrong, USM prolly has the best orientation week out of all the public universities in Malaysia. Seriously. I'm the problem here hahaha.

We have only one roll call, just for Subuh berjemaah at masjid, everyday at 5:25 AM for a week straight. Yup, no other roll calls. No night schedule. We're free at night! Hello??? That's the greatest blessing of orientation week? Other universities have agendas until midnight at least if I'm not mistaken.

Except for the taklimat. I'm so sorry I'm allergic to it hahahaha it makes me feel sleepy I can't help my eyes. I know its important but maaflah guys saya manusia biasa lol.

The only time that we had "something" at night was for the Ice Breaking Session which was not compulsory and any night activities conducted ended by 11 PM. Except if you were to practice or prepare for the dinner - Which we had on Thursday night. And omg guys I legit became the informal emcee for the dinner together with Jen & Shamim. I was just trying out my luck and I saw it as a stepping stone for me to become an "active" student. Acah bhai hahahaha.

Back to the story, I was really not me during the orientation week. I don't talk/socialize that much with people, I avoid making friends, I stay away from human beings. I just try to at least put a smile on my face and act normal. I cried at all the encouraging words my friends from home sent me, especially Amani's. I feel like I'm putting everyone's believe in me to a disappointment. Tahlanak apehal tah.

[Side note : Shout out to UIA Gombak friends/students, please take care of Amani and treat her well for me. Ice cream is compulsory]

On the bright side, I'm finally good now, I think. I'm still trying to adapt but I feel completely better than the first week. I don't know if I'm going to be okay after class starts hahaha but lets just wait and see. I feel like I'm myself again although I'm slightly awkward!!! I made more friends and I eat with other people lol. I'm super thankful to that one helping hand that reached me, I hope you know who you are, its unintentional but you're the one who made me feel belong and accepted, I don't know why and how. Also a huge thank you to the cake at secret recipe that I ate on the day after the orientation, first thing that cheered me up. And most importantly member-member (seniors) frisbee!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks for teaching me! Playing it made me thrilled and hella excited. Guys I need yall to know that ultimate is F.U.N. fun!!!!!!!!! I know the throwing and catching phase can turn boring sometimes but yall have to bear with it first. Baby steps guys. Kena belajar dulu baru boleh main kan? I pun noob teruks tapi syok la main walaupun I hambar teruk jugak hahahaha. Harap-harap istiqamah lah belajar main frisbee, tapi istiqamah dalam beribadah juga harap ditunaikan hahaha #pray4farahanis

But most importantly, I need to focus on my studies because after all that's the main reason I'm here in USMKK. I'm still a little bit blurry and lost, I feel nervous about studying again, with all the tests & assignments coming up but I hope with Allah's guidance and help, I, and everybody else that are feeling the same way will get through it. Lecture pun dah ada yang start tapi aku rasa minda aku berterabur lagi dengan takde reference nya. Rasa macam gelabah sorang-sorang sebab semua orang nampak tenang lol. And guess who got an assignment on the first day of class? Me HAHAHAHA.

My room here is so small :') Its half the size of my room at matrics & theres 3 of us omg :') 1 bunk bed & 1 single bed. Siapa nak single bed make sure masa daftar tu kau huruf C (for Desasiswa Murni) hahahahaha. Susunan almari dia jugak aku tak boleh brain. I'm so sorry I didn't take any single photos throughout the week.The least we could do was change the position a little bit to make our life easier. Next, teruskan kehidupan.Kalau my myCSD banyak, next sem bolehlah mintak bilik 2 orang or sorang kot. Kalau kaya pulak yall boleh mintak nak duduk bilik aircond hahahaha.

Whatever it is I also need to pass this on to you guys that things (outside USM) aren't so bad around here like I expected it to be lol. Its not vavavoom, but its quite okay lah, got everything needed. Big Apple also got okay! 

Special thanks to Adibah for being my peneman setia. Dibah semua dia on je  Lastly I just wanna congrats the PPSL team, your hard works are amazing, I hope it pays off.

Till then, take care 

by farahanis;